2010

I have this idea in my head that everything should just fall together.

I have this gut renching feeling in my heart that I'm in for a hard run.

My life has never been easy but is anyones life easy?

It's all perspective and importance.

Im amazed by how much a perspective can change over such a short amount of time.

Half of one year has created a new me.
Can I say a better me? Eh.

Perhaps a more opened, enlightened...hardened.

At 21

I do feel alone.

I do not have a husband or children.

I'm independent.

Solo.

Ive found no one who wishes to keep me as theirs.

Forever.

I wont settle for the maybe or the unsure.

We all feel alone.

Commit to me.

For the fact that you want to.

Allowing me into your forever is mind blowing...

Heavenly.

And then I awake.

On this earth.

Stuck in the now.
Dreaming of forever.

I dont know the plan.

I havent even seen the blueprint.

Here we go again.

Next Chapter.