Perception

I have this fear

that I will never have a loyal spouse,

not due to lack of good intentions but because of sluts promiscuous females.

This paranoia that my same sex will never cease to tempt & seduce the one I love can be poison.

I believe that my fear is unjustified (in most cases).

I know this fear is due to past experience & betrayal.

My mind tells me that I should not believe this fear is unwarranted.

Men People Lie.

People always have their own intentions, motives.

No one is trustworthy.

However, my heart tells me if I never look past it I will remain alone.

Look past-ignore.

Once upon a time, I believed that love would conquer all.

Main case in point, Once upon a time.

Life has shown me that love is not just a special bond shared between two people.

Love is tampered with...

by fears, by pasts, by ones own skewed version of a fairy tale, happy ending.

Humanity strives on envisioning the future, the positive future.

Sad.

For once, I say be realistic!

How often do people say that they knew they would fail during the moment of stride?

Rarely.

Should I conform to knowing that my future is grey?

Or perhaps live blissfully in this lifetime.. ignorant to the deception?

Dilemma stands. 

Thought Sequence.

I know that I am a young woman.

I know that I have a lifetime ahead of me.

I know that I am different.

I know that I do not share the same views as most.

I know my requests are mostly illogical.

I know that I have a void deep in my heart.

I know that I have tried to fill this void with all known possibilities.

I know that I was only once complete.

I know that God chose to remove that piece of my soul.

I know that God carried it with him.

I know that I am a work in progress.

I know that I am lonely.

I know I want love.

I know I want a family.

I know I want to be needed.

I know I can be happy with simplicity.

I know that God is going to make this difficult.

I know that I will trudge through.

I know that in the end all memories fade.

I know that in the end all people fade.

I know in the true end God will explain to me his test.

I know that I tried my hardest to pass.

Quoted

Life is like women.

Everybody loves life but it sure is a bitch.