that I will never have a loyal spouse,
not due to lack of good intentions but because of sluts promiscuous females.
This paranoia that my same sex will never cease to tempt & seduce the one I love can be poison.
I believe that my fear is unjustified (in most cases).
I know this fear is due to past experience & betrayal.
My mind tells me that I should not believe this fear is unwarranted.
Men People Lie.
People always have their own intentions, motives.
No one is trustworthy.
However, my heart tells me if I never look past it I will remain alone.
Look past-ignore.
Once upon a time, I believed that love would conquer all.
Main case in point, Once upon a time.
Life has shown me that love is not just a special bond shared between two people.
Love is tampered with...
by fears, by pasts, by ones own skewed version of a fairy tale, happy ending.
Humanity strives on envisioning the future, the positive future.
Sad.
For once, I say be realistic!
How often do people say that they knew they would fail during the moment of stride?
Rarely.
Should I conform to knowing that my future is grey?
Or perhaps live blissfully in this lifetime.. ignorant to the deception?
